Wootz

I just bought the most awesome shirt today...

It goes well with my other one...ZOMBIE

Yeagh.. ouch.. tired...

We moved into our lovely home Saturday and have been busy scrambling to repair what needs repaired now, painting, mowing, unpacking, and setting up. We have had to have more service people come in to do stuff then ever. We have had Movers, plumber, hvac, 2 appliance deliveries, and an electrician.

We have been running ourselves ragged to get ready to have company this weekend since it is my birthday on saturday. my parents will be in town, and we still dont have a place for them to sleep put together yet.

Slowly but surely it is coming together, and soon the curtains will go up.

Laterz!

ps: it has been a bear to be internet-less this week. i am so looking forward to monday!

New News

My wonderful wife ArEsDee and I and buying a house! We are will be farther away from work then we are now, but still close enough for me. This will be my second time to own a home, but the first for my wife. She is nervous nervous about the prospect, because its such a big step, and an investment. I share a bit of her nervousness, but that is mostly squelched by excitement!

Film at 11.

WoWo!

Its been a bit since I have last posted.  I keep telling myself I need to do this more often.

what has happened in the last year that is worthy of blogness?

I just celebrated my 1 year anniversary.

I turned 34.

I went to my first Parent-Teachers conference.

I volunteered for the first time at my childrens school.

I bought my beautiful wife a Canon G10, and she is loving it.

I am got to see my friends from STL this september.

My wife and I went to the renassaince festivel together for the first time (we both have gone seperately)

I got to go to my first real rock concerts Rob Zombie!!!! and Metallica!!!!!!

I saw Friday the 13th for the first time, and was dissapointed.

I started playing my 4th MMO, Tabula Rasa

I started playing my 5th MMO, Warhammer Online

I started playing SPORE!

I finished Darwinia

I added 2 more expansion to the original SIMS game.

biggen bloggen boggen

I find myself once again looking down the barrel of a new year. But this one is new and different then others of the past. I share this one with my new bride, the joy of my life. We saw the old year out with sniffles as the four of us had a cold to some degree as the year ended. The women folk seemed to have gotten the worst of it though.

With the Holidays over, the homefront is hoping to see renewed time to dedicated to the upkeep of the apartment and the tenants. in other words, I need to hit the gym. clothes that used to fit me half a year ago, are now a bit snug. man, i hate exercise.

The new year rings in another year of gaming with my MMO friends. City of Heroes/Villains (CoX) is old new, World of Warcraft (WoW) has long been abandoned, Dungeon and Dragons Online : Stormreach (DDO) sits by the wayside. While we eagerly await Warhammer: Age of Reckoning (WAR) to finish up and be released, my friends have decided to give Tabula Rasa (RGTR) a chance. To be fair, it is still a fairly young game, so it has it bugs, but it is falling into a place, that for me, exists between CoX and WoW. It seems to combine a middle ground of the features from both games, an okay balance of made them both fun games to play. So while I am terrible at FPS's, I am finding RGTR to be nice resting place as we wait on WAR!

May your new year be filled with fun and fancy with doses of reality thrown in for good measure.

Expenses

We are on the last legs of this wedding journey. We are trying to get a photographer lined up, working on getting our bank stuff consolidated, a budget lined up, and plans for my sons birthday. We still need to find time to run out and get our Marriage license, print out all of our plane, hotel, condo, and car reservation papers.

Time is slowly ticking down and we are getting more and more excited to see the date come and go. The time spent alone in Florida will be a welcome relief.

Getting the bulging disk in my back corrected is getting more and more expensive as the week progress. I have a feeling my MRI is going to be one of those items you have to apply your deductible to, in which case I will footing the entire bill. I just paid for 12 treatments that are not covered by insurance, in order to hasten the pace of my recovery. 3 copays a week are adding up too…

Having to deal with my back was not in our budget plans for getting out of debt after the wedding, nor was my limited movement and capacity to do things factored in when we planned everything. I know my back pains and mobility are a source of disappointment for my fiancé, as we struggle to do things, and miss something’s just because I cannot do them. I am working extra hard to ensure that I will be able to stand the entire wedding and that I will be able to dance at the reception, and be able to function the week afterwards. My doc is pretty positive, that with aggressive work and consistency on my part with my exercises (which is hard to achieve when your day is taken up by a job).

And that leads me to my weight. I have gone up again, and I am finding it hard to wear even new clothes I bought. Some of it is the water gain and bloating caused by the steroid I was on as an anti-inflammatory for my back. The rest of it are my diet and exercise. We have plans after the wedding to join a gym and do a lot of swimming, watch what we eat, and generally try to slim down (we have both gained weight since we have started to date... dang regular eating!)

Oh well, back to that work thing.

LaterZ!

Messed Up

I am seeing a chiropractor/physical therapist/physio therapist about my back. Drugs were not doing me any good. My doc thinks that I have a bulging disk, and this disk is irritating nerves which is causing my muscles to react which is causing me to be bent out of shape.

I go in tonight for a MRI, and I am hoping that he sees what he thinks he will so, because bulging disks can generally be taken care of non-surgically. He is working with me to get me up and able to enjoy myself on my honeymoon and hopes to have me cured by JAN 1 or so.

I will post more as I learn more.

Peace!

Busy... SUCK...

Busy....
so my life is fairly busy these days with the wedding fast approaching. Wedding invites are sealed and stamped, email invites have been sent, honeymoon paid for, and almost everything else is arranged. The big thing this week is trying to pack up my fiance and move her in, so we don't have to deal with it in an even busier Oct.

I am so happy to be able to see a very close online friend in person for the first time, as he is coming to my wedding.

Plans to go to Germany in the spring are solid, with is a breath of fresh air.


SUCK....
my back is still killing me. I need to find some time to make an appointment and make sure there is nothing medically wrong with me and it is just weak muscles and fat belly causing me grief.

Thats all i have for now.

Week

I have run old friends all this week online, and I am trying to keep in touch with them. I hope some of them are able to make it down for the wedding.

Wedding plans on my end are going well. On her end, she has more to do then time to do it she says. I try to help out when and with what I can.

Well, short and sweet, i am back to work.

Long Time No See

It has been a little bit since I last posted. Life has been proceeding fairly well. Job is ok as ever, car needs new brakes, but works none the less.

I proposed to my girlfriend on June 29th, and we are getting married Nov 3rd. Hopefully my father will be able to do the ceremony, we shall see how that all shakes out. We are planning on visiting sunny Florida for our Honeymoon (78deg air temp, 80deg water temp).

Well, I should get back to work. I will post more later.

WootZ

I went sailing this weekend with my sweetheart. It was a blast! Her little boat is fun to run around on and learn off of. I did a fair amount of the "driving" and I think I was doing quite good for my first time out.

it was good to get another use out of my sailing gear. 2 times on the water, and its looking like alot more sundays filled with water are in my future.

Later!

Unbeliver!

You know who you are. She is real. :P *phbttt*

Easter

Easter has come and gone. Another joyous weekend with my sweetheart. I suppose I should give her a name, a moniker to refer to her with, other then sweetheart. ArEsEm is the moniker I shall use for her.

Easter was another exceptional weekend. ArEsEm went with me to pick up my children, and we took them to McD's and to Walmart so they could get their mother and brother something for easter.

We then took them back to my apartment and tucked them into bed. After they were in bed, we cleaned up my kitchen a little bit, as ArEsEm was going to cook us french toast in the morning. We then laid out the stuff we had got them for easter, the beautiful easter baskets she had put together along with the couple things I had picked up.

The next day, we watched them open their gifts and ArEsEm and KayEeDee (my daughter) made french toast. my son, AaEsDee, did not like the french toast, even though he ate the majority of it before he decided his tummy was hungry for cereal. That boy is a picky eater.

We then had them get dressed and took them to ArEsEm's grandma's house for egg hiding. It was a bit too cold to really enjoy it, so it tried not to hide them really well, just kind of scattered them around. Even so, the kids still managed to walk by a few of them sitting out in the open. Kids are fun.

Based on feedback from their mother, we decided that KFC would suit them for their easter lunch, as we wanted to do a picnic, but the weather would not permit it. Again.. my son is pain in the arse to feed. Not sure what i am going to do with that boy.

The rest of the day went smooth. the kids napped, and i ended up napping in the arms of ArEsEm while she watched The Sound Of Music. I woke up the kids crawling on me, as they were done with their nap, so we watched The Wizard Of Oz, in which ArEsEm did some napping and I stayed awake.

The kids are really taking a liking to ArEsEm. KayEeDee crawled up into her arms and snuggled in to watch the movie. AaEsDee did the same when i had to get up to go to the bathroom. I came back to my kids snuggled around her, and it filled me with joy. Though my spot was taken, I was still happy.

On Sunday, ArEsEm and I went to her church for easter services, and then we tried to get out and do something, but everything seemed to be closed, so instead we stayed at her apartment, played a shortened version of the game called TABOO. She then cooked me a wonderful supper that we ate with candlelight. then it was off to rent a couple movies, get desert from sonic, and snuggle down to watch what we rented.

I also got to meet her brother on Sunday. A friendly gentlemen, even though i only got to shake hands with him, as he was late for an evening with his girlfriend. Hopefully i shall get to visit with him more later. ArEsEm says we have allot in common and would get along well.

Well that is probably enough for now. I hope everyone that reads this had a most wonderful easter!

Better then your average bear

What a wonderful weekend. The weather cooperated, the kids were healthier, and I got to spend time with my sweetheart. The kids love her to death. We all had a wonderful time at the park, and while I stayed home with my son (he needed a nap) she took my daughter to the store and did some shopping with her.

Then saturday, we went dancing and stayed up too late afterwards watching The Phantom of the Opera. We did not make it all the way through, she kept falling asleep sitting with me on the couch. So at a point, i just turned it off, said my good bye and went home to crash myself.

It was a wonderful weekend. I sure hope there will be many many more like it.

H E Double Hockey Sticks Week

This week has been horrible. I come down with a cold on Saturday afternoon. Everyday it gets worse. Yesterday was horrible. My eyes, nose, and mouth constantly burned, my whole body ached, I was either cold or hot, i had no energy, and devoured a large box of Kleenex.
Last night, my fever broke and I'm feeling a bit better today. I still am tired and worn out, my nose still feels warm, but i think the worst is over. I am taking today off, my fourth vacation day taken since Friday (good thing I had a few spare). Hopefully I will be able to get to work tomorrow, I'm going stir crazy.

My sweetheart is not faring to much better. She is having trouble keeping warm, and her head is clogged up so bad, it is making it hard for her to think. Unfortunately she has to go to work today, or she has to get a doctors note.

ugh.. what a week so far.

EDIT:
I ended up going in for a half day. Kept me from going stir crazy, but man it was a long 4 hours of work. hard to keep my mind in the work.

Disney On Ice

My daughters birthday was a success. She totally enjoyed the show and seemed to have a blast. My son on the other hand, spend most the weekend with high fever and sluggish. neither of them ate well at all. It was the second time they got to meet my girlfriend, and they seem to like her. She handled the kids very well, and they both seemed to listen to her and to talk to her. My daughter treated her like a best friend, they did alot together. My little one even did some swimming with her and did a wonderful job.

I think I got my sons cold. I started to feel sick on saturday. I think only the kids got alot of sleep. Both of them coughed and hacked and snored thier way through both nights. There was a wedding party on the floor and they decided to talk to 1 am sat night and the adults had trouble sleeping with all noises. ddnt help that by sat night, all of us had the rough dry cough. was like a chorus of coughs.

but all in all, my sweetheart and I both agreed that it was a wonderful weekend.

and thats all i have for today.

I need to move

I get home tonight to find that my door has been kicked to death. Whoever did it, was unable to break it down, but the outside of my door is busted, my door jam is shattered, and I had to crawl in a window i found unlocked to get into my own apartment. I am debating sleeping here tonight, as i know the door will not withstand another such attempt. Nothing is missing, but i am still unsettled by the whole matter.

jealousy

I have never been a real jealous person. I was used to my X having more gentlemen friends then female friends. It was something I knew, and it did not bother me. But ever since she left me for the neighbor, I have been filled with jealous rage. It scare me. I am not a wrathful nor jealous person, and how quickly and strongly I can get angry because of jealousy these days bother me.

My sweetheart loves to dance and there are few men in the church group that dances that can keep up with her, and she loves to dance the faster dances with them. She also has a kind and gentle heart and will pass up dancing with me to ensure that those that don't have a dance partner get a chance to dance. I love this nature about her, but what I don't like are the occasional pangs of jealousy I feel. They are never very big and I soon squash them, but they should not be there. No one she dances with is in competition with me for her attention, everyone is a long time friend in a close knit circle of friends. I know this, I understand this, I don't understand why Im feeling jealousy towards them.

She did thank me last night for letting her dance a few dances with the others, and would usually let me know that she was going to dance with whom, and whether it was to give them a chance to dance or a song came on that they could dance the heck out of. She is a very wonderful person, and thoughtful beyond measure. When she thanked me for letting her dance with the others, I told her it was no problem and it was good for me. She asked me why, and I told her that I never was a jealous person, my x was a tomboy and had more guy friends then female friends and it never bothered me. until she left me for one and ended up pregnant. And that now I am jealous, but i have no reason to be with her and her circle of dance friends.

I am hoping that I got across the point I was trying to make to her, that sometimes i did feel jealous last night, and that i had no right, and she can tell that i may be acting that way to tell me that i am silly. or cute.. cute works too.

So, some of her friends are going to die. Seems that at the wedding, while we were waiting to disperse and go eat before dancing, we kissed. Her friends saw, and gave her a hard time about it in a good natured joking manner that all good friends have. It embarrassed her completely, and she had a hard time, i think, enjoying the majority of the slow dances because she was waiting for the next person to give her a hard time for being with me. It was different for me of course, as I don't know them that well yet, and their banter wouldnt bother me at all anyway. When i am dancing or i am out with her, my full attn is focused. I noticed, as i am sure a few others did that were watching from the sidelines, that when we danced, i never took my eyes off of her. I was dancing for her, with her, because of her. I just hope that she doesn't get any grief for it.

well, i have probably said enough. i should get around and get ready for a friends child's first birthday party/open house get together. I still need to eat and go get a card for the little one.

"May the lord bless you and keep you close to his heart. May he reach out and strengthen the bonds of relationship between you and yours. May he show through you the love that is in him for all people"

Live Love Life

Life is cruising along at the speed of love these days. This week I have spent only the time needed to sleep and shower at home. My Sweetheart as was sick Tuesday night, Wednesday and Thursday, so I made sure to go over and keep her company when I got off of work every day. I had two events at church that kept me busy from 7-8:30 on Tuesday and Thursday.

We were going to go bowling last night, but Friday night is not a good night to go bowling. So we went ice skating instead as this bowling alley has an ice skating rink. Skating was fun, but the cold air got to my lungs and the skate killed our collective feet.

So after about 4 rings around the rink, we called it quits and headed out. We drove past where I work, she took me out past her parents house, and a couple other places from her childhood. It was nice.

Every day I spend with my sweetheart, my heart grows fonder for her, and I become more and more in love with her as that love matures from a simple (wow im dating again!) to something deep and special. She has a wonderful sense of humor, and like me, can break down into spontaneous bits of humor and fun at any time. (we had a sword fight with our straws in Olive Garden last night.. it was wonderful)

A bit of news for those of you not in the know.
My daughter turns 6 Sunday. I am taking her to see Disney Princess Wishes on Ice in St. Louis the weekend after that. It should be a fun weekend for me, as both my wonderful children are going, as is my Sweetheart. My extended family in St. Louis is helping me out by getting my daughter a cake for her birthday (so I don't have to travel with one).

My Brother is leaving his family. I think. Maybe. He is moving to Omaha Neb alone. He will be staying and paying rent with a friend up there, and his wife and 3 kids will be moving in with their dad in Wichita. I guess the plan is try out this separation thing for a couple months and if they like it, I am not sure. He did not say there were in marital trouble, just that not living together was cheaper and better for everyone (financially). I don't know about him.

Well thats all I have to say about that.

Blessed

I don't know if I have made this clear yet, but the Lord has led me to one of the greatest blessings in my life. When I needed it the most, when I listened to the Lord, he led me to one the sweetest people I know. Someone whom blesses my life everyday she is part of it. I do not know my heavenly fathers goals, whether she is here to bless me for a short while or a lifetime, but I am thankful. She is my sweetheart. I try every day to make sure she knows that she is a blessing in my life. I try to give thanks and lay my relationship with her at the Lords feet, and ask him to lead me where he desires.

But most of all, I am trying (not very successfully) not to worry about it, to allow the Lord to take care of it. But relationships are one of my greatest worries areas. Dating is probably the hardest area for me because I am scared to death of loss and terrified of rejection. I tend to second guess my every action and worry about everything. My friends tell me to relax and just be myself and be honest and everything will work out for the best.

Honesty is one thing I am working very hard at doing. I hid too much about who I am in the past when I was married. Never again. The person who spends the rest of life with me will get me, and not the part of me that is acceptable to them. They will get brutal honesty, they will get my soul laid bare, and probably more then they need to know about me.

I strive to ensure that I learn from the mistakes in my past, to make me a better person for today.

"May the Lord lead us to the life he has prepared for us. May our relationship be a beacon of the Lords love to all that witness it. That is my prayer."